I had just split up with my partner who I was living with for 5 years. We were living together with my daughter and our pets. I had just graduated from community college with my Associate’s degree and was ready to transfer to a four year school. I was almost 40.
Where was I going to live? How was I going to be able to do this all by myself? Though the split was a long time coming, I had not prepared myself for the reality. I was scared and felt really disconnected from my beloveds and myself because that happens when you’re in school, especially with family.
I remember learning about the mantra Ardas Bhaee from my yoga teacher. Darshan Kaur explained how this mantra is a prayer for miracles when things feel hopeless. Guru Amar Das brings hope to the hopeless and Guru Ram Das is the bringer of miracles. The miracle of miracles is how Darshan Kaur referred to Guru Ram Das. The prayer builds as you chant their names and is released with Sachee Sahee. Chanting Guru Ram Das’ name always brings me to a place of peaceful strength. He has been a comforting presence in many moments and this mantra seemed a perfect choice during this time of great transition and uncertainty.
Ardas Bhaee Amar Das Guru
Amar Das Guru, Ardas Bhaee
Ram Das Guru, Ram Das Guru
Ram Das Guru, Sachee Sahee
I chanted this mantra every day for months. The seed of “everything will be ok” was planted and grew. I started to embrace this break up as a time of freedom and possibility.
Below is a link to my favorite recording of this mantra by Jai Jagdeesh. She weaves her song around the mantra in a most delightful way that always takes me right to that place of grateful and heart-open-wide hope. I hope you feel some of that too. Blessings.